I started the day with the tapping for weight loss bonus meditation. I am headed to bed and will listen to at least one tapping sequence or meditation before going to sleep. Today was a little challenging for me. I homechool my sons but I am not in synch with our new school year schedule. I am also off this week from teaching my fitness classes soI am a slug. Last night I only got about 5 hours of sleep so I was extra snacky today, which is my pattern. As I get ready to go to bed, I feel frustrated and am coming to terms with just how much I need to address my emotions...they have always dictated how I eat and exercise. So...I have been saying that I HAVE to start logging my food again. I sit and log my food and realize that I have barely moved today but I have eaten quite a bit due to sleepiness. At the last minute I jump up and put on a workout. I really didn't want to but it was only 22 minutes so I went for it and am soooo glad that I did. Tomorrow is a new day. I have to choose to focus on self-love and self-care instead of frustration with what seems like ALLLL I have to do to "hope" to lose weight. But I am willing to reframe all of it...I am willing to release the desperate need to lose weight. I am willing to see journaling my food, exercise and tapping as total, luxurious self-care they are as essential as brushing my teeth and getting my yearly check ups, etc....This morning I thought to myself that I have more to gain and less to lose (except the weight, of course) by tapping and addressing my emotions. Everything else has yielded minimal results with mega frustration. At least when I tap....my spirit feels better. So, this is my day.
I am making some astrological connections with my health. We are currently in Venus Retrograde and part of the focus is on health and beauty. I feel like this retrograde has awakened me in a big way. I feel birthed anew. First I got on the scale only to realize that I am up another 10 lbs. That shocked me!!!! 190 lbs is way too much for my frame! I knew that my clothes were fitting tighter and they are my "fat" clothes!!! Then on Thursday while I was teaching, I felt a pain shoot through the center of my back through my chest. I thought I was having a heart attack. I totally feel like this is my life and my guides speaking to me driving it home even more that I need to take care of my health. They have my attention. I feel birthed anew and awake! I am in need of retraining my brain as I now see that eating is a habit for me. I get to the point some days when I feel absolutely no hunger...I feel so satisfied but I realize that I get bored and want ...
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