This morning I awoke and began tapping. As I write this it is over 12 hours later so I hope to remember what exactly happened but I just know that I had a major breakthrough.
I explored my inner fear. Something I have known for a while is just how long I have felt fear in my life. I also explored my feelings of loneliness. I remember lying in bed at night as a girl feeling empty. I felt alone.
Somehow as I tapped all of this welled up major emotion. It is an emotion that I know well. It feel painful, like acid and even my heart chakra painfully throbbed. I began to see how so much in my life, such as other people's drama or my issues with them, have been in place in part to keep fear up in my consciousness because I adopted fear as a way to protect myself as a child. I knew that if I stayed fearful, then I would stay aware so if anything sudden happened in my home that had abuse as well as alcoholism I would be ready.
This way of being can no longer be. It is making me ill and I can't lose weight. I affirmed that I need to trust my warriors: Eshu, Ogun, Ochosi and Osun. I tapped and tapped until I could feel the emotions dispel.
I also affirmed my beauty, wonder and greatness and I thought about how many people have told me how awesome they think that I am....not sure where this came from but I remember thinking it.
I ended feeling pretty darn good and super grateful for my life as is.
I noticed that today, like so many of my recent EFT days, I have been calmer and doing things that I haven't been inclined to do in the past. The people who have been on my nerves didn't bother me so much or at all today. I like this new me. I am doing all I can to dig deeply within myself
Today i thought about how deeply this negative emotion runs into my psyche and body. My bones are being affected by it so I am committed to continuing to tap to excavate the hurt and pain within.
okay...i am about to fall asleep sitting here. I give thanks DEEPLY for EFT!!
I explored my inner fear. Something I have known for a while is just how long I have felt fear in my life. I also explored my feelings of loneliness. I remember lying in bed at night as a girl feeling empty. I felt alone.
Somehow as I tapped all of this welled up major emotion. It is an emotion that I know well. It feel painful, like acid and even my heart chakra painfully throbbed. I began to see how so much in my life, such as other people's drama or my issues with them, have been in place in part to keep fear up in my consciousness because I adopted fear as a way to protect myself as a child. I knew that if I stayed fearful, then I would stay aware so if anything sudden happened in my home that had abuse as well as alcoholism I would be ready.
This way of being can no longer be. It is making me ill and I can't lose weight. I affirmed that I need to trust my warriors: Eshu, Ogun, Ochosi and Osun. I tapped and tapped until I could feel the emotions dispel.
I also affirmed my beauty, wonder and greatness and I thought about how many people have told me how awesome they think that I am....not sure where this came from but I remember thinking it.
I ended feeling pretty darn good and super grateful for my life as is.
I noticed that today, like so many of my recent EFT days, I have been calmer and doing things that I haven't been inclined to do in the past. The people who have been on my nerves didn't bother me so much or at all today. I like this new me. I am doing all I can to dig deeply within myself
Today i thought about how deeply this negative emotion runs into my psyche and body. My bones are being affected by it so I am committed to continuing to tap to excavate the hurt and pain within.
okay...i am about to fall asleep sitting here. I give thanks DEEPLY for EFT!!
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