I decided today to stay off the scale. I am giving myself a year to get my body to switch over to thriving mode from survival mode. I decided that my plan was to be more focused on healthy living. A great thing that I have noticed today is that I am so calm that in the quiet moments, I am almost at a loss. This is so good and so amazing how I see how much space is open in my life without all of the emotional upheaval! Because I realized that I was addicted to having drama in my consciousness, I agreed with myself to use the new free space in my mind for the positive instead of inviting the drama back in. I actually am so happy about feeling like what I think it was like as a child...no thought...no judgement...just right now. If I never lost another pound,this peace is all that I need to thrive on life.
I am making some astrological connections with my health. We are currently in Venus Retrograde and part of the focus is on health and beauty. I feel like this retrograde has awakened me in a big way. I feel birthed anew. First I got on the scale only to realize that I am up another 10 lbs. That shocked me!!!! 190 lbs is way too much for my frame! I knew that my clothes were fitting tighter and they are my "fat" clothes!!! Then on Thursday while I was teaching, I felt a pain shoot through the center of my back through my chest. I thought I was having a heart attack. I totally feel like this is my life and my guides speaking to me driving it home even more that I need to take care of my health. They have my attention. I feel birthed anew and awake! I am in need of retraining my brain as I now see that eating is a habit for me. I get to the point some days when I feel absolutely no hunger...I feel so satisfied but I realize that I get bored and want ...
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