One more thing...I had an additional revelation that stems from one last week...I was raised up in stress and though I have chosen a calmer lifestyle, I still find ways to keep myself stressed. This morning I have been feeling super calm and I don't know what to do with myself. What if all these years, I keep coming up with drama, even in the form of being overweight, to keep my stress addiction/tape running? That is mind blowing to me. How many times have I self-sabotaged not because I am really that weak but because I simply have bad programming that I did see until now...thanks to tapping. Giving thanks and doing all I can to stay happy! #KeepTapping
This morning I awoke and began tapping. As I write this it is over 12 hours later so I hope to remember what exactly happened but I just know that I had a major breakthrough. I explored my inner fear. Something I have known for a while is just how long I have felt fear in my life. I also explored my feelings of loneliness. I remember lying in bed at night as a girl feeling empty. I felt alone. Somehow as I tapped all of this welled up major emotion. It is an emotion that I know well. It feel painful, like acid and even my heart chakra painfully throbbed. I began to see how so much in my life, such as other people's drama or my issues with them, have been in place in part to keep fear up in my consciousness because I adopted fear as a way to protect myself as a child. I knew that if I stayed fearful, then I would stay aware so if anything sudden happened in my home that had abuse as well as alcoholism I would be ready. This way of being can...
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