WellnessInspiratonBlog: Personal Journey

April 7, 2017 #ProjectMe  I never want to forget the highs AND the lows of my journey to a better me.  I am so frustrated that no weight loss has occurred the almost 3 weeks I have been making significant and real changes in my eating, way of thinking and overall beingness.  Yes! This 47 year old woman cried this morning because I am so disappointed and even pissed.  How am I a fitness professional but I have a weight issue that seems to be winning this battle? In the last few days I have deeply accepted that weight is a symptom of something else.  I do know that eating too many sweets is a contributor but I think this is much deeper than that and that is my new mission. I have to look at my relationship with myself and get real about how negative I am towards my own self.  I also have to deepen my relationship with the Great Divine...I need to trust life..to trust that no matter what all is well.  With that...I move forward on fire with the spirit of...

WHEW! I have been feeling super emotional for a number of reasons here lately. This is after feeling REALLY GOOD after completing the 7 week program. I have even been struggling to stick with my "tap first thing in the morning" schedule though I get it in later in the day. Having energy or not is my sign of my being most off here lately. I have dealt chronic fatigue syndrome and lethargy was my biggest issue so when I feel tired, I almost get panicked. Additionally, having energy issues is a major path to weight gain for me. Today has taken the cake for me. I have found myself drifting back to eating sweets and exhausted and then today I have felt down in my spirit. I decided that my only choice was to tap. I really didn't have anything that set me off so I just started tapping on how bad I felt inside. Eventually I started realizing that it was sadness and grief from my childhood. The more I tapped the more in touch I got with a deep and intense pain that I have known fo...

I think about how many people say they are going to start something new to improve their lives and then something happens and they fall off the boat almost before they even get going.  I teach fitness classes and people will start my class and within a couple of weeks or sometimes even BEFORE they start they tell me they have an injury and can't take my class. Oftentimes, the injury is a freakish one that happens outside of my class. I actually feel terrible when that happens and can relate.  What I think people don't get is that when we want to make changes in our lives, we have to realize that moving past one's current way of being must be addressed and overcome before moving forward is possible. I think if people knew that this was the case, it would not throw them for a loop so much when the disarray breaks lose.  It took me a while to realize why this happened to me. So what I would do is tell myself that the chaos that happens with the decision to change is simp...

I have so much to say that it almost difficult to get it all out.  I think that I am in week #10 since starting the Tapping For Weightloss Program with Jessica Ortner.  Tapping has become part of my daily rituals and almost essential to helping me keep my inner self calm, happy and peaceful. What I have been doing is using Jessica's tapping scripts for various issues and as I do so, I begin to hear what my deeper issues are and then I do my own tapping.  What the experts say is to tap the meridian points while talking about your feelings or remembering past events.  In doing so I am able to get in the moment and raise the emotions that come with my thoughts and feelings. I really do need to blog closer to my releasing times because I can barely remember my breakthrough tapping sessions. I know I have tapped on my self-esteem issues and recently my OCD, hair pulling.  It took me a while to even want to tap on my hair pulling but the day I decided to do so, I ...

This morning I awoke and began tapping.  As I write this it is over 12 hours later so I hope to remember what exactly happened but I just know that I had a major breakthrough. I explored my inner fear. Something I have known for a while is just how long I have felt fear in my life.  I also explored my feelings of loneliness.  I remember lying in bed at night as a girl feeling empty.  I felt alone. Somehow as I tapped all of this welled up major emotion.  It is an emotion that I know well. It feel painful, like acid and even my heart chakra painfully throbbed.  I began to see how so much in my life, such as other people's drama or my issues with them, have been in place in part to keep fear up in my consciousness because I adopted fear as a way to protect myself as a child.  I knew that if I stayed fearful, then I would stay aware so if anything sudden happened in my home that had abuse as well as alcoholism I would be ready. This way of being can...

I decided today to stay off the scale. I am giving myself a year to get my body to switch over to thriving mode from survival mode. I decided that my plan was to be more focused on healthy living. A great thing that I have noticed today is that I am  so calm that in the quiet moments, I am almost at a loss. This is so good and so amazing how I see how much space is open in my life without all of the emotional upheaval! Because I realized that I was addicted to having drama in my consciousness, I agreed with myself to use the new free space in my mind for the positive instead of inviting the drama back in. I actually am so happy about feeling like what I think it was like as a child...no thought...no judgement...just right now. If I never lost another pound,this peace is all that I need to thrive on life.  :)