WellnessInspiratonBlog: Personal Journey

I think about how many people say they are going to start something new to improve their lives and then something happens and they fall off the boat almost before they even get going.  I teach fitness classes and people will start my class and within a couple of weeks or sometimes even BEFORE they start they tell me they have an injury and can't take my class. Oftentimes, the injury is a freakish one that happens outside of my class. I actually feel terrible when that happens and can relate.  What I think people don't get is that when we want to make changes in our lives, we have to realize that moving past one's current way of being must be addressed and overcome before moving forward is possible. I think if people knew that this was the case, it would not throw them for a loop so much when the disarray breaks lose.  It took me a while to realize why this happened to me. So what I would do is tell myself that the chaos that happens with the decision to change is simp...

I have so much to say that it almost difficult to get it all out.  I think that I am in week #10 since starting the Tapping For Weightloss Program with Jessica Ortner.  Tapping has become part of my daily rituals and almost essential to helping me keep my inner self calm, happy and peaceful. What I have been doing is using Jessica's tapping scripts for various issues and as I do so, I begin to hear what my deeper issues are and then I do my own tapping.  What the experts say is to tap the meridian points while talking about your feelings or remembering past events.  In doing so I am able to get in the moment and raise the emotions that come with my thoughts and feelings. I really do need to blog closer to my releasing times because I can barely remember my breakthrough tapping sessions. I know I have tapped on my self-esteem issues and recently my OCD, hair pulling.  It took me a while to even want to tap on my hair pulling but the day I decided to do so, I ...

This morning I awoke and began tapping.  As I write this it is over 12 hours later so I hope to remember what exactly happened but I just know that I had a major breakthrough. I explored my inner fear. Something I have known for a while is just how long I have felt fear in my life.  I also explored my feelings of loneliness.  I remember lying in bed at night as a girl feeling empty.  I felt alone. Somehow as I tapped all of this welled up major emotion.  It is an emotion that I know well. It feel painful, like acid and even my heart chakra painfully throbbed.  I began to see how so much in my life, such as other people's drama or my issues with them, have been in place in part to keep fear up in my consciousness because I adopted fear as a way to protect myself as a child.  I knew that if I stayed fearful, then I would stay aware so if anything sudden happened in my home that had abuse as well as alcoholism I would be ready. This way of being can...

I decided today to stay off the scale. I am giving myself a year to get my body to switch over to thriving mode from survival mode. I decided that my plan was to be more focused on healthy living. A great thing that I have noticed today is that I am  so calm that in the quiet moments, I am almost at a loss. This is so good and so amazing how I see how much space is open in my life without all of the emotional upheaval! Because I realized that I was addicted to having drama in my consciousness, I agreed with myself to use the new free space in my mind for the positive instead of inviting the drama back in. I actually am so happy about feeling like what I think it was like as a child...no thought...no judgement...just right now. If I never lost another pound,this peace is all that I need to thrive on life.  :)

Okay...I feel like I have had a breakthrough or a start to one. First off I am feeling so happy to have made it to Week #7. I listened to the Week #7 webinar today and as i finished I teared up feeling accomplished. You know how some of us may feel that we start but never finish anything...that is me. It always takes FOR-EVER for me to finish anything. But I have been benefiting so much that it has been easy for me to stick and stay and for a couple of weeks to FIGHT to stay on the program. Well, the next thought that went through my mind was how I was done thinking so terribly about myself and I meant it. I don't exactly know how it lead to me sobbing and so I decided to tap while sobbing per Jessica and other tapping expert's recommendations. I cried for all the years that I kept going and have tried to make a good life for myself despite my mega negative self-talk. I patted myself on the back for pushing forward to be a good person anyway. Then I started thinking about the g...

One more thing...I had an additional revelation that stems from one last week...I was raised up in stress and though I have chosen a calmer lifestyle, I still find ways to keep myself stressed. This morning I have been feeling super calm and I don't know what to do with myself. What if all these years, I keep coming up with drama, even in the form of being overweight, to keep my stress addiction/tape running? That is mind blowing to me. How many times have I self-sabotaged not because I am really that weak but because I simply have bad programming that I did see until now...thanks to tapping. Giving thanks and doing all I can to stay happy! #KeepTapping

#KeepTapping: This morning I awoke gripped in worry and fear surrounding a financial issue for me. This is nothing new but all this year I have been working to avoid worry and fear. As I listen to Jessica and other brain experts, I am learning that negative emotions block me from actually finding the solution that I need. This would be the perfect day for me to skip tapping (who was talking about self-sabotage, yesterday...yeah, this would be typical for me in the past...worried so I can't tap because I am too busy being worried...lol..so glad I can laugh today. ANYHOO, I said my prayers and then forced myself out of the bed and turned on the morning clearing and affirmation tapping meditation. After getting my tapping on, I decided to not worry and to actually see the blessing in the situation. I also made the decision to mention my situation to my husband, who I struggle to talk finances with. He pulled out the cash I needed just like that and I was like WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gi...