WellnessInspiratonBlog: Personal Journey

WHEW! I have been feeling super emotional for a number of reasons here lately. This is after feeling REALLY GOOD after completing the 7 week program. I have even been struggling to stick with my "tap first thing in the morning" schedule though I get it in later in the day. Having energy or not is my sign of my being most off here lately. I have dealt chronic fatigue syndrome and lethargy was my biggest issue so when I feel tired, I almost get panicked. Additionally, having energy issues is a major path to weight gain for me. Today has taken the cake for me. I have found myself drifting back to eating sweets and exhausted and then today I have felt down in my spirit. I decided that my only choice was to tap. I really didn't have anything that set me off so I just started tapping on how bad I felt inside. Eventually I started realizing that it was sadness and grief from my childhood. The more I tapped the more in touch I got with a deep and intense pain that I have known fo...

I think about how many people say they are going to start something new to improve their lives and then something happens and they fall off the boat almost before they even get going.  I teach fitness classes and people will start my class and within a couple of weeks or sometimes even BEFORE they start they tell me they have an injury and can't take my class. Oftentimes, the injury is a freakish one that happens outside of my class. I actually feel terrible when that happens and can relate.  What I think people don't get is that when we want to make changes in our lives, we have to realize that moving past one's current way of being must be addressed and overcome before moving forward is possible. I think if people knew that this was the case, it would not throw them for a loop so much when the disarray breaks lose.  It took me a while to realize why this happened to me. So what I would do is tell myself that the chaos that happens with the decision to change is simp...

I have so much to say that it almost difficult to get it all out.  I think that I am in week #10 since starting the Tapping For Weightloss Program with Jessica Ortner.  Tapping has become part of my daily rituals and almost essential to helping me keep my inner self calm, happy and peaceful. What I have been doing is using Jessica's tapping scripts for various issues and as I do so, I begin to hear what my deeper issues are and then I do my own tapping.  What the experts say is to tap the meridian points while talking about your feelings or remembering past events.  In doing so I am able to get in the moment and raise the emotions that come with my thoughts and feelings. I really do need to blog closer to my releasing times because I can barely remember my breakthrough tapping sessions. I know I have tapped on my self-esteem issues and recently my OCD, hair pulling.  It took me a while to even want to tap on my hair pulling but the day I decided to do so, I ...

This morning I awoke and began tapping.  As I write this it is over 12 hours later so I hope to remember what exactly happened but I just know that I had a major breakthrough. I explored my inner fear. Something I have known for a while is just how long I have felt fear in my life.  I also explored my feelings of loneliness.  I remember lying in bed at night as a girl feeling empty.  I felt alone. Somehow as I tapped all of this welled up major emotion.  It is an emotion that I know well. It feel painful, like acid and even my heart chakra painfully throbbed.  I began to see how so much in my life, such as other people's drama or my issues with them, have been in place in part to keep fear up in my consciousness because I adopted fear as a way to protect myself as a child.  I knew that if I stayed fearful, then I would stay aware so if anything sudden happened in my home that had abuse as well as alcoholism I would be ready. This way of being can...

I decided today to stay off the scale. I am giving myself a year to get my body to switch over to thriving mode from survival mode. I decided that my plan was to be more focused on healthy living. A great thing that I have noticed today is that I am  so calm that in the quiet moments, I am almost at a loss. This is so good and so amazing how I see how much space is open in my life without all of the emotional upheaval! Because I realized that I was addicted to having drama in my consciousness, I agreed with myself to use the new free space in my mind for the positive instead of inviting the drama back in. I actually am so happy about feeling like what I think it was like as a child...no thought...no judgement...just right now. If I never lost another pound,this peace is all that I need to thrive on life.  :)

Okay...I feel like I have had a breakthrough or a start to one. First off I am feeling so happy to have made it to Week #7. I listened to the Week #7 webinar today and as i finished I teared up feeling accomplished. You know how some of us may feel that we start but never finish anything...that is me. It always takes FOR-EVER for me to finish anything. But I have been benefiting so much that it has been easy for me to stick and stay and for a couple of weeks to FIGHT to stay on the program. Well, the next thought that went through my mind was how I was done thinking so terribly about myself and I meant it. I don't exactly know how it lead to me sobbing and so I decided to tap while sobbing per Jessica and other tapping expert's recommendations. I cried for all the years that I kept going and have tried to make a good life for myself despite my mega negative self-talk. I patted myself on the back for pushing forward to be a good person anyway. Then I started thinking about the g...

One more thing...I had an additional revelation that stems from one last week...I was raised up in stress and though I have chosen a calmer lifestyle, I still find ways to keep myself stressed. This morning I have been feeling super calm and I don't know what to do with myself. What if all these years, I keep coming up with drama, even in the form of being overweight, to keep my stress addiction/tape running? That is mind blowing to me. How many times have I self-sabotaged not because I am really that weak but because I simply have bad programming that I did see until now...thanks to tapping. Giving thanks and doing all I can to stay happy! #KeepTapping

#KeepTapping: This morning I awoke gripped in worry and fear surrounding a financial issue for me. This is nothing new but all this year I have been working to avoid worry and fear. As I listen to Jessica and other brain experts, I am learning that negative emotions block me from actually finding the solution that I need. This would be the perfect day for me to skip tapping (who was talking about self-sabotage, yesterday...yeah, this would be typical for me in the past...worried so I can't tap because I am too busy being worried...lol..so glad I can laugh today. ANYHOO, I said my prayers and then forced myself out of the bed and turned on the morning clearing and affirmation tapping meditation. After getting my tapping on, I decided to not worry and to actually see the blessing in the situation. I also made the decision to mention my situation to my husband, who I struggle to talk finances with. He pulled out the cash I needed just like that and I was like WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gi...

I started the day with the tapping for weight loss bonus meditation. I am headed to bed and will listen to at least one tapping sequence or meditation before going to sleep. Today was a little challenging for me. I homechool my sons but I am not in synch with our new school year schedule. I am also off this week from teaching my fitness classes soI am a slug. Last night I only got about 5 hours of sleep so I was extra snacky today, which is my pattern. As I get ready to go to bed, I feel frustrated and am coming to terms with just how much I need to address my emotions...they have always dictated how I eat and exercise. So...I have been saying that I HAVE to start logging my food again. I sit and log my food and realize that I have barely moved today but I have eaten quite a bit due to sleepiness. At the last minute I jump up and put on a workout. I really didn't want to but it was only 22 minutes so I went for it and am soooo glad that I did. Tomorrow is a new day. I have to choo...

I have so much on my mind that i can barely get it out. I have been on a year long journey into the pit of weight loss hell. As a fitness instructor, I have struggled with my weight at times but nothing like this, which reminds me of my weight loss journey after have my second beloved child. I just couldn't seem to get it together until one day, all of my weight loss efforts seemed to work synergistically and the weight started to pour off my body. Since 2013 I have been one stressed sister. I have not taken very good care of myself and have been on a roller coaster of stress that I willing rode until I realized how few results I was getting. I began to realize that I was having more and more issues with losing weight as well as feeling emotionally distraught most days of the week. I started with cutting back on how many classes I taught as well as relationships. Any relationship that brought unnecessary stress got removed. By the time 2014 ended, I was doing better but rea...